Sorry guys that i didn't update my blog and let it rot for like months. Nothing to blog at all :/ This will be a very boring post, so if you don't wanna waste your time, please don't read.

Well, When I'm in secondary 1, 2 and 3 I didn't study at all, neither did i try to study. Lack of motivation for me to study. So now, I'm trying my best to buck up everything that I did not learn / practice / study. Not because of my dearest boyfriend, neither is it for my parents, it's for myself. I cannot rely much on Jon, we might not last, in the end I'll be the one suffering instead of him . Whose fault for not studying well enough? Mine.
Whose fault for being addicted to online games? Mine.
Whose fault for not being able to sleep for online games and wake up late for school? Mine.
Whose fault for always going out and neglected my studies? Mine.
Stupid ass hole, no idea why on earth everyone must study, it's just a waste of time to study. Why can't everyone be born like a smart ass instead of dumb ass? -_- Oh well, I've totally no idea what I'm talking about.

Study hard for this year, I don't wish to go ITE. I wanna get promoted to secondary 5 and go poly ):!
All the best guys :D!

Okay, let's talk about craps now.
Went out with Brenda on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. I've no idea what i do on Monday and Tuesday. I only remember Brenda, Alvin and I went to Bugis to buy clothes and all. It's either on Monday or Tuesday, got short term memory -_- Wednesday went to Tamp mall, Tamp 1 and century square with Brenda and 2 of my brothers. (Chongboon & Kenwin) -_-

Wore the same shirt as Brenda, just take different colour. Attracted too much attention for wearing same shirt + same heels and have this awkward feeling walking together with her -_- Spent almost 100 bucks, for buying 1 jacket and 2 shirt. Jacket and one shirt is for my brother's birthday present, Jan 10. Gonna have BBQ below my house, don't think I'll be very busy because I wont help to BBQ. It makes me stink so bad, all because of the smoke.

Hmm, I'm also feeling very sick and tired because kept going out this few days. Yesterday was having a bad headache! Well, feeling alright now, but still not totally recovered yet. Hmm.

Okay la. I promise to blog, but now I don't know what else to blog anymore -_-!
Gonna change blog skin now. Looking for nice blog skins :D
Ciao!

Miss baby a lot, he's at field camp right now, some ulu ulu jungle. Sigh, no idea why on earth must have national service! Waste of guy's fucking time, seriously i hate Singapore. Shit world with money face government, carp man! Wondering if he's asleep right now, or smashing flies? Is he having a good day, or is it very bad? :/ Cant contact him for 6 days, not at all! But i still can message him, but he can't reply my messages or so because he cant bring his phone along.

The loneliness of nights alone
the search for strength to carry on
my every hope has seemed to die
my eyes had no more tears to cry
then like the sun shining up above
you surrounded me with your endless love
Cause all the things I couldn't see are now so clear to me

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Now all my hopes and all my dreams
are suddenly reality
you've opened up my heart to feel
a kind of love that's truly real
a guiding light that will never fade
there's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
for the love you give it won't let go
I hope you'll always know

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

You're the breath of life in me
the only one that sets me free
and you have made my soul complete
for all time

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
be my everything

A song I wish I'm able to sing to you right now, baby.

Varsity - You'll be okay

Okay oh oh okay
Okay (yeah) oh oh okay

I couldn't live without you, no
Couldn't see myself without you
But it's over now
I'm lost when I'm without you, yeah
My heart just doesn't beat the same
I ain't got no one to blame

And when I'm alone
I tell myself
I'll make it on my own

Like the lyrics of a sad song
Mine was feeling so wrong
If you could only hear the words I say
When your heart beats beside me
Without you, I can't find me
I just wanna hear you say
That you'll be okay
You'll be okay
Okay oh oh (hey) okay
Okay (okay) oh oh okay

If I could turn back to us
Mmm oh
Then maybe I could change the way I was
Just to prove it to us
I can be all the man you need
And you're still the only woman for me

And when I'm alone
I tell myself
I'll make it on my own

Like the lyrics of a sad song
Mine was feeling so wrong
If you could only hear the words I say
(Hear the words I say)
When your heart beats beside me
Without you, I can't find me
I just wanna hear you say
(I just wanna hear you say)
Yo
That you'll be okay
V, lemme in man
Yeah
Yo
You'll be okay

Uh Yeah, I'm here to show
Here to be okay
She had left me so sick like Ne-Yo say
Damn
I'm a need a couple of minutes to bounce back
Love is more important than the money I found then
But it's too late
Baby I know now
When I saw you standing by the door
Like go now
So cold like a snow cloud
So slow merry go round
Here to hold cold now [? ]

And when I'm alone
I tell myself
I'll make it on my own

Like the lyrics of a sad song
Mine was feeling so wrong
If you could only hear the words I say
When your heart beats beside me
Without you, I can't find me
I just wanna hear you say

Like the lyrics of a sad song
(You'll be okay)
Mine was feeling so wrong
If you could only hear the words I say
When your heart beats beside me
Without you, I can't find me
I just wanna hear you say
That you'll be okay
Oh no
You'll be okay
Okay oh oh okay
Tell me you'll be okay
Okay oh oh okay

Thanks to my laziness and tiredness! :DD You guys don't have to waste your time on reading what happened today ;P Ahaha! :D Quite a tiring day, but yet worth it.
By the way,

Lian eh!
Happy 15th Birdday x)!

*Oh shit* Today forget to give you birthday bash ;P! Ahahah.

Really wants to know what is his finger size ):! But it is a surprise for him, so i shall not ask. I did ask him if he's finger is bigger then mine or smaller then mine, trying to say some cock things so that he will believe what cock i said :X! But don't really have patience to wait for him to come out, then check on his fingers when he fall asleep on my bed. So i went to Bishan J8 today, with Brenda, Evelyn, ChiuPing, Eunice, Fali, and Robin. While Brenda is queuing up to withdraw money, Evelyn accompany me to the shop to engrave Jonathan's ring. Waited for awhile, because the girl is serving another girls. Then, the lady told us to come back around 3pm, kinda late huh, plus it's 12.5x that time. So, while walking to the food court, Brenda and the rest came up and we saw Amanda ^-^!

Went to eat after that, but Amanda didn't come with us. Evelyn introduce me one beef noodle, not nice ):! Maybe I'm not used to it, it taste weird :/ Ahaha, then after eating Evelyn went home, I wanted to go home too, but lian eh wanna me to go back to school to study physics, wanted to kill me too! >_< She keep slapping me T_T She's a big bully, ahaha! Then i sneak into the bus, ez-link card no $ already. Lol, ahahaha! :D I dont know what to write already.

Audi-ing just now, lost fam battle 3 times. Won, none! They like using hack, keep on perf. The first and second round, they like so weak cant perf keep on missing, then when reached 188bpm x6 perf. Lol, Brenda, Alvin, and I got angry and fedup. Yesterday my score for 188 bpm is like 7xxk, just now i ONLY scored 18xk. Funnnnny right? God shit. LOL!

Roar man.
Byeeee!